so i decided to throw my weekend to the h2o fall getaway. i'm not sure how smart that is, because i've got a shload of stuff to do around here.
but tomorrow and saturday should be fun. i'm running with my longtime HS friend Kathy, who is by far the coolest girl i know. so why haven't we ever hooked up, you ask? two simple reasons:
1) she dated my brother for a few years and even though that was a long time agon, it would still be *weird*
2) she's prepetually in a long term relationship with guys a lot cooler than me
anyway, the getaway lasts until sunday, so it'll be a whole weekend of fun with my friends from church. plus, a whole lot of God time i hope. i need some after the way school's been beating me up.
sunday should be fun though because we're shooting some more chicken bone, plus ole' tenbrink is in town and i'm pumped to see him. and i'm looking forward to mens group at night.
speaking of, sunday and monday are gonna be ridiculous to get through. something big is due in every class on monday, tuesday, or wednesday. which makes me wonder, is fall break really worth it?
anyway, i need to get back to the h-work, because that's what it really is.
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thumbs up: friends who drop in when you don't expect it (thanks for the email bert)
thumbs down: anything school related
quote: "i could be so much more than this...i want to be so much more than this." - jimmy
wow, today was a much brighter day than last. didn't mean to scare anyone with my last post.
justin, sorry to tell you, but today broke the streak of people telling me that my weezer shirt is cool. for the last 3 times i've worn a =w= shirt, total strangers are like, 'cool shirt man.' and always in the union! but at least my physics prof made up for it today (read the quote at the bottom of the post). hows your pinky by the way?
i met with ashley this morning... i always look forward to hanging out with him b/c he's one of the few guys i know who doesn't compromise his beliefs or morals in any situation. he's always genuine, sincere, and just plain cares. and he's cool.
school was so annoying today. the crossword was hard. then to make matters worse, my english class was frustrating. you see, my english class - "literature of the beat generation" - always has interesting discussions about lit and music and sex and stuff. but i NEVER say anything. i'm a pansy and i'm intimidated by the 30 english majors in the class who reference tons of authors and books and poems that i've never heard of. i really like discussion classes...i just wish i knew more on the topic. more than just who kerouac and ginsberg were...but what they wrote and the impact it had on the general public. it's so stinkin' frustrating. especially b/c i'll probably blush bright red when i start talking. that happens to me whenever i'm in an uncomfortable situation like that.
but to let off some steam i did the big workout w/ jesse today - climbing the wall, running 4 miles hard, then eatin' a little subway so as to NOT offset the exercise. the big draw of workouts, in my opinion, is to break myself, to work my body hard. it's such a help psychologically. it's how i get out of the 'emo' moods or when i'm just plain cranky. plus it gives me more energy and usually helps me watch what i'm eating. the only problem is keeping the legs healthy and finding the time.
so now i'm doing homework.
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thumbs up: night running (which would be a good song title, except rem took it kind of)
thumbs down: hot girls that smoke weed (why english girl, why?)
quote: "what's a weezer?" - my physics prof, to me this afternoon in reference to my shirt
losing touch with friends on purpose, because you don't know if they value you as a friend...and then you find out that they probably don't. i value trust and LOYALTY out of my friends. maybe i value trust and loyalty too much. but isn't that what friendship is all about? i call you, you call me. i want to hang out with you, you want to hang out with me. was the last 6 years a whole charade?
so it makes me feel even worse when i think about re-starting these friendships, which failed only because I stopped keeping them up. i was playing that game: i'll wait and see how long it takes for them to call or to want to hang out. but they never do. so how highly do they value my friendship? is it worth restarting, just so i can feel cool again?
if you're reading this, you are not one of those people, i assure you.
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thumbs up: genuine and sincere people
thumbs down: people who act like they know what they're doing, when they really don't
quote: "our boats collide, we feel the breeze" - get up kids
