you want to see a picture of me with long hair? click here. it's a really big picture, sorry 'bout that. my friend krista, who now lives in poland, took this a few years ago in yellowstone.
i finally ran indoors today, in the 70 degree heat in the field house to get used to running without 5 layers of clothes on. my legs felt terrible, they took 3 miles to get loose. that's right, i had to run for 25 minutes just to get my legs LOOSE. my usual race is 3 miles. sheesh. my legs suck.
ben got his cell phone pickpocketed in new york city on new years. and he got a new one for free, attaboy.
as much as i hate to say it, my good friend alaska justin is on his way out of town & back to alaska for one more semester. i think we hung out every day over break, even christmas & new years. hasn't changed a bit.
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thumbs up: 7 days till cali
thumbs down: about 120 days until alaska j comes back for good
quote: "see you in the summer" to alaska j
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"mer-man!"
cd rotation: hey mercedes: everynight fireworks
i threw together a little dinner for some friends tonight with kurt. it was funny because we had more girls than guys, added to the fact that i was making a nice dinner, so jesse and kurt kept asking me, 'so, who is the dinner really for?' and 'who are you macking on?' and so on. i don't really have my eye on any of the chicas invited, i just wanted to have a good time with some friends. unfortunately though, i was too busy playing host to really talk to everyone and that sort of thing. so you all need to throw parties and have people over, dang it!
the art projects are moving along nicely. i hope someone in the apt follows my lead and gives some creativity, you know what i'm sayin?
did you hear about apple's new web browser called safari? its wayy fast and wayy cool. just one more reason that apples rule and pcs drool.
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thumbs up: chicken "paramasagno!"
thumbs down: mmmmm...
quote: "you sunk my scrabbleship!" kurt & simpsons
cd rotation: get up kids: eudora
these days have been fun. why would anyone ever want to go to school? kurt, alaska j and i spent last night reminiscing about ole' BGHS, including 'schumacher syndrome,' the 'tri-combo,' cheerleaders, track & 'the promised land,' the 'phb,' the 'same hair girl,' etc. sometimes i miss the days. i think it would be fun to go through HS with the friends i have now, and totally blow off class and be the coolest kids in school. i mean, skipping class in college isn't as fun as skipping in HS, because no one (including the prof) really cares. plus skipping college classes usually screws you over in the end.
even though its at 10am, work has been a bear to wake up for. plus its boring. i ran after work but my legs felt like horsecrap, maybe i know why, i'm not sure, but it makes me nervous with raceday only 10 or 11 days away.
i started painting again today, just because i felt like blowing some christmas money on some canvas and a few new brushes. i'm no good, so its fun.
sorry about the 1200 justin, insurance sucks too.
the reason i ask, andrew and mike (btw, that lyric does sound like pinewood, although i think yours is better "find the nearest exit") about who you direct your encouragement and hope towards is to see, well, if thats how you live. do you take it to heart when its directed inward? or is it an emotion that fades, a state of mind that changes as soon as the sun comes up again. because i've had a hard time maintaining my drive to "live & adventure" sometimes. without things like school its easier but i know its gonna hit me again in a few weeks. then i wonder: which mindset is 'correct?' the one seeking discipline and hard work or the one seeking creativity and adventure? and how can they be mixed? it seems like a dichotomy to me, unable to be balanced. so which one are we to lean toward? and how does that reflect on our spiritual, emotional, & physical lives? sometimes thinking like that makes my head hurt, but sometimes its good to take stock of the bigger picture.
i think when we direct those thoughts towards others, its dangerous, because we really set ourselves up to be disappointed in other people. this summer was similar, i held my friends in such high regard, and saw only their potential, and so when they didn't live up to it, it crushed me a little and i felt like a little part of me would stay crushed. think 'jaded' if you will. so i took the easy way out and gave up on a lot of people. which is ridiculous, and kind of selfish. i dunno. you can see i waver a bit between feeling compassion towards others and feeling indifference. that's why, when you find good people, you have to hold on & build with them. like you who are reading this right now. you're awesome.
and now, i will stop rambling.
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thumbs up: melting snow
thumbs down: last time i checked it was still winter
quote: "crab at the booty, 'tain't gonna do no good" - weezer
cd rotation: the get up kids: something to write home about
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weezer: green
wow, so i just got my butt kicked (metaphorically) by a girl i went to high school with, i never once even talked to her in high school (or college), but i ran into her tonight and she ended up asking me a lot of questions about my faith and why i believe a lot of the things i do, whether i like how i was raised, etc. and i realize that all i was doing was regurgitating what i've heard other people tell me and that i really don't think for myself very much. through this conversation i realize that i need to get back on track with a lot of things, and to take a bit of perspective.
and now i'm all messed up, i have to skip work tomorrow (& the next day) to drive my brother & sis to the airport, and have a meeting with a professor regarding an independent study that hasn't been finished up yet, grrrr.
of all the things i want to do right now, work and school are the bottom two. :(
thanks to that girl though, i wonder if i'll ever even see her again. we sat in my car and talked about God for 15 minutes, she was really open with me, a stranger, really.
God moves in mysterious ways, I tell you.
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thumbs up: circumstances
thumbs down: work & school, argh
quote: "lovely party, pity i wasn't invited" - alaska J.
cd rotation: saves the day: stay what you are (still, this cd rocks)
after a monster snowball fight with my brothers & cousins, i was exhausted and had to sleep on the ride back from my aunt's house. we had our belated christmas party since we weren't able to make it on christmas day due to the 10 feet of snow on the roads.
ray just got back to the apt after spending the weekend skiing, i didn't go because of a lack of funds, plus i needed a little down time to relax & junk. unfortunately that 'relax & junk' period is over, as i start work tomorrow & work on my independent study that i've neglected for a month or so. grrrrr.
justin, i've got to ask you (& mike & andrew too): who do you reference with your "live out your dreams, live your life" statements? are they directed towards friends, or yourselves?
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thumbs up: tackling my brothers
thumbs down: getting snowballs in the face, with both eyes open
quote: "i think farting must be going around the house, everyone's been doing it lately" - nathan, my 9 year old cousin
cd rotation: saves the day: stay what you are
so we did it, jesse & i ran 14 miles today, in surpisingly fast fashion. you'd be amazed how nice the cold feels at 11am on a saturday, it was invigorating, if nothing else. but now my legs are finding it hard to move; stiffness isn't really as much fun as it sounds. props to the jess-man though, attaboy.
we visited arby's and the kozey's apartment today, and i think i can take some decorating tips from both. "i've had it with this dump" comes to mind - not that this place is a dump or anything, it just needs some character. break out the paintbrushes and pictures, i say.
i was thoroughly happy to watch my older brother, a phd student, my sister-in-law, a law student, my younger brother, an aspiring valedictorian, and myself, an aspiring senior honors student, absolutely laugh our socks off at wayne's world. i think wayne's world is the best movie ever, period. how many great lines have come from that movie?
i'd bet that in your lifetime, you've done one of the following:
1)pulled over a car and asked, "pardon me, do you have any grey poupon?"
2)headbanged to bohemian rhapsody
3)said "game on" while playing street hockey or another often-interrupted sport
4)show a pass or id to everyone you can find, as in the alice cooper backstage pass scene
5)said, "its almost too easy" when describing something ridiculously complex
6)said, "diddle-do, diddle-do" while changing scenes in a school play
7)quoted the entire passage:
"a gun rack? a gun rack. what am i going to do with a gun rack? i don't even own *a* gun, let alone many guns, that would necessitate and entire rack. what am i going to do, with a gun rack?"
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thumbs up: still, the bucks
thumbs down: sore muscles
quote: "let me put it this way, i have an extensive collection of nametags and hairnets" - waynes world
cd rotation: u2: live junk
